when it was true

2010-05-12T16:10:00.002+08:00

2010-04-17T19:57:00.004+08:00

I was so pissed off when you was first day in camp.

No msg, one time call in the evening and that was only like 30 mins.

Not enough yknow and I was too demanding. I agree.

This was all because I'm freaking missing you too much.

But now, I'm used to it already cause I understand how tiring and suffering it is.

And I know my baby is doing his job to defend the country.

No sweat, chicken feet.

Haha, all the way.

-.-

Two weeks gonna end pretty well soon.

28 is coming and the feeling was aaaaaaahhhhhhhh!!

No words can describe it.

All I know me and you will spend our time together perfectly.

2010-04-12T05:23:00.006+08:00

This is so very irritating when I can't get to sleep cause of the weather.
It was so damn freaking hot and I even go and get a shower at this hour.
Time check: 5.23am mann.
Currently at boyf's and he is sleeping very soundly.
Speaking of that, in a few hours time, he is going to be enlisted in the army at tekong.
Will be sending him off later to tekong and there my baby goes.
An army boy booking in and out.
Baby, I'm so gonna miss you.
Okay now I want go to the toilet cause my perot buat hal already.
Aku maintain okay the whole day tak tidor.
Tata-titi-tutu.

2010-04-11T01:15:00.008+08:00

I can feel the ouch! right now, at this moment.
I'm just left with this sunday and he is going for his ns tomorrow.
Two weeks confinement tu pulak.
Aku just senyom jelah ehh.
Yes, it may just be only for two weeks and it doesn't even not like two months or two years.
But the feeling of being away from each other for that two weeks will be terribly different for me.
Cause I always got you by my side.
Sometimes uh ns pon sucks jugak tau.
I'm glad that this feroz is really excited and looking forward for his ns.
Tak sabar sabar nak masok. Geramm jer.
Aku tau yang di luar nie akan merinduimu selalu stoooppidd!
Still, I will support you all the way until you ORD-O.
:D

Just figure out in my head.
I'm proud to say I got you.
For sure and without deny, I will absolutely miss you.
I love you feroz.

2010-04-05T20:33:00.004+08:00

Feroz is going for his ns in 7 days time.

I know baby , you're looking so much forward for it.

I will support you in everything you do as you'll always have my back.

With every breath that I breathe, and every beat of my heart,

I love you.

I've just had my dinner with my parents.

Oh yar, I'm back home since its my off day today and tomorrow.

The feeling of eating together with them, awesome!

Its been quite sometimes I've not had my dinner with them.

We talked and shared alot.

Thanks mum, dad for your words of advice.

I just love my mum and dad!

They are super great for me.

P/S: 18th, family day.

Going to have some rest now.

Tired, sleepy, aching here and there.

Bubbye.

2010-04-03T02:26:00.007+08:00

Hello everyone.. I'm BACK.
Ohmygod! I really miss this mann.
LOL + LMAO.
Due to work and tiredness, I really got no time for this bloggy until today.
Cos two days kakak on leave. Haahaa.
But still not enough but what to do.
No work, no money. Than later parah.
Okay that was so random.

First of all before I start anything, I thank god for this blissfully relationship with my dearest Mohd Ferozhan.
We are officially one years old now.
I'm looking forward for my future with you, baby.

Everything at work was okay and okay lah.
I can see the team is really bonding now.
Bravo bravorians!
The credits should goes to my new and fresh and better TL.
Oops! Better? Hahaha. God knows more.
Well, changes are happening here and there in my terminal.
People are transferring from this team to that team.
Some are resigning and manpower now is totally tight down.
That manpower issue, haiyaaa.
No comments and that is so very normal to me already.
Everyday gate to gate, run here, run there until makan time also lari.
Breakfast bring forward to lunch, lunch bring forward to dinner sampai lah aku sampai rumah baru makanan sampai ke dalam mulot aku.
Totally no break!!!
I'm planning to look for another better job but this Singapore uh.
Too many foreigners are working for our country already.
So Singaporeans wait and wait for our call.
Common line will be said when you're attending for an interview.

Was on leave for two mornings this week.
Out with feroz, iqa and ash.
I swear, I had so much fun though everyone was tired on that day.
But still, I'm in so satisfactions mood. Thanks boyf.
Foursome knows! LOL.
I love my people.

Anyway, I'm left with eight more days and after that I gotta be independent.
Feroz is going for his ns on this coming 12.
My baby is an army boy. :))
The shit thing is that I can't get to see him as he need to stay in for two weeks.
Two weeks tau. Uh huh! Uh huh!
Despite the tiredness, a call for the day is a must as Feroz has already promised me that.
Atleast one minute call will be okay for me as long as I get to hear your voice.
That will be really enough for me.

On top of that, Feroz's parents was so freaking damn nice to me.
Thank you so much pakcik and makcik.
Sayang kamu berdue. :))

Feroz's father: Nanti bile Feroz dah masok, Aishah balik jelah rumah pakcik macam biase.
Me: Huh? Takpe lah, Aishah boleh tidor rumah kawan Aishah jer atau tidor office jer.
Feroz's father: Asal nak tidor office or rumah kawannye? Balik jer rumah pakcik mcm biase. Pakcik ngn makcik lagi senang bile Aishah balik rumah kite. Pakcik pon tak bimbang. Dah dah, balik jer rumah pakcik mcm biase. Nanti pakcik suroh makcik buatkan Aishah kunci rumah spare.

It really touches my heart so deep deep.
So sweet of his parents.
At that moment, I was almost about to cry but I really really tahan.
If not paiseh kakak. Haahaa.
All this while when I'm working, I won't go back jb that often as it is very inconvenient for me.
My shift pattern already very troublesome for me to go back to and fro.
So on my four working days, I will be sleeping over at Feroz's place.
Thank you so much Feroz and his family for everything.
I love you guys! I love my family more, more, more!

I got to go sleep now.
I'm on night shift today.
Sucks to the core siaa night shift.
Off to bed now.
Good night everyone.
Have a great weekends.
xoxoxo

2010-03-11T06:27:00.002+08:00

Suddenly I feel like I miss blogging so much.

I know its been reeeaaallly a long time I didn't update.

Lazy.Tired.Sleepy.Busy.

Anyway I'm at my workplace now, waiting for my gate to be open at 06.50.

Night shift today and I hate every of my night shift cause it sucks.

I've got a lot of updates. I'll do it later.

:))))

2010-02-17T23:35:00.002+08:00

Hello everyone.
Long time I didn't update this space of mine.
I've been very busy with my work and I've been doing a lot of ots too.
Unbelievable right? I know once I've said that this job sucks now.
But for now it was okay cause I got two kaki gereks with me.
I can say that they make my day at work for that twelve hours.
Ohoh. Someone whom I've been waiting for all this while to leave is finally leaving soon.
Thank god for answering to my prayers.
I had so much fun at work for this past few days. Limited period.

I'm turning 20 very very soon.
Oh gosh! I'm an old fart.
Its like no more teen in my age.
People will like asking me, whats your age? And I'll be like oh, I'm 20.
No more (9)teen in my age number.
You get it? Okay whatever!
I hope this year gonna be something special for my birthday cause I got a boyfriend to celebrate with.
Feroz, what have you bought for me?
Ok nah I'm kidding.
I just don't want anything but I want you to be with me till end of our time. Make it always and forever.
That will be simply enough for me.
Hahahaha. :))

I'm planning to enroll a driving license soon.
I want to drive a car and that will be very convenient for me and my family.
Money! Money! Money!

I'm off to bed now.
1st morning tomorrow.
Tralalalala.

2010-02-03T13:11:00.002+08:00

Hey there people.

I'm at the old police academy now having my course for my retest tomorrow.

People are doing the test and here am I taking this chance to update my blog.

My test is tomorrow. Wish me luck baybeh.

I'll update more later.

Cannot update now, later kena scold with the trainer.

Mampos aku!

Hahahaha.

Great day people!

2010-01-27T18:10:00.003+08:00

I just came to realize that a lot of deaths has been happening lately.
Recently my grandfather just passed away, my boyfriend's best friend (azmir), his mother had just passed away too.
What a devastating news!
Anyway, takziah to azmir and his family. Be strong, we're there for you.
I just hope that may the soul rest in peace.
Amin.

Feroz and his family are coming over to my place on this coming Saturday.
Confirm ateen suke punye.
Hahaha, yknow i know eh sister.
Luckily that day is my off day.
I'm so looking forward. :)

Happy 10th monthsary feroz.
May our relationship livelong.
I love you in every single way.

2010-01-23T17:39:00.006+08:00

Hey there everyone.

Changing of blogskin and that was too simple cause I'm so lazy to edit here and there.

Somemore I'm not using my own computer and I'm not even at my own house.

Got time limit one down here. Hahaha.

And long time didn't update this bloggy.

Missessssss.

First of all, takziah to everyone from my father's side.

My grandfather had just passed away last thursday.

Semoga allah mencucuri rahmatnya. Amin.

And that makes me not going to work on my 1st night.

Went back to jb, slack at home and back to spore on my 2nd night.

But I .......................................................

Sshh, I shall not say here.

Work was great lately with justina kasim but pay wise uh, haiya don't know what to say lah.

No hope, i also don't got cock up onot but management say confirm no shortage.

But to us there is still, gasak kau lah cisco.

As long as my pay will come in to my account right on the dot on every end of the month.

Seriously, I don't care how much the amount is anymore now.

I WANT TO CHANGE MY JOB.

But I heard market was bad now.

Hard to find job for now.

Just stay and endure if you still can.

People say, being single much more better than having a boyfriend.

Up to individual, the matter is how you run the show with your other half.

Feroz completes my life totally.

Good or bad, he is still there for me.

Though at times I yelled and cursed him cause of my tiredness after work.

I did vent out all my anger to him.

I'm sorry baby but yknow I love you.

Right feroz?

Soon, my feroz is going for his ns on 12 april.

My army boyfriend. :)

I'm having a family date tomorrow to city square.

Yeah, long time never go out with them.

So much looking forward.

I want to really enjoy myself with my family.

It is sunday tomorrow and it is my off day.

:) :) :) :) :)

I love my boyfriend.

Enjoy your sunday people!

2009-12-29T17:58:00.005+08:00

Shout this out to my dearest girl.
May all your wishes come true.
May god bless you always with happiness with ash.
May our friendship livelong.
I miss all the hang outs with you.
Msning during our off job period, late night conversations on the phone, conferences.
Sharing all our secrets, gossips, listening to each other pour outs.
Ohmy! I seriously miss doing all that with you.
I'm meeting you soon later and I'm so looking forward.
I miss you bestfriend.
Lastly,
HAPPY 19TH BIRTHDAY!

2009-12-19T04:18:00.002+08:00

Many things happen lately.

Anyway holla everyone.

Why am I posting this picture?

Hahaha, a random one.

Lately I love to look at this kind of pictures.

And I don't know why, I think it makes me feel so relax.

Yes, I think it really do.

Okay whatever about that.

Work was great lately.

Yes, I know I claimed it was sucks the other time.

And I don't know whats with me now.

Maybe for a period.

Guess what?

I'm all alone now at work.

My buddy has gone m.i.a.

But I still surviving.

I'm waiting for justina to come back.

I miss her to the fcuking core.

She really rock my ass at work.

Currently now I'm msning with feroz.

This guy is really good at making me smile.

"Baby, i really miss you ar. Entah, out of sudden. I want to hug you and kiss you."

Which girlfriend wouldn't smile whenever her boyfriend said this?

Not only at the msn but each time when we were msging and talking on the phone.

I'm lucky to just linger in feroz's light.

I love you baby. :)

I'm so looking forward for the 24th.

Family-get-together cum makan-session.

I'll update once the event is done ok.

Luckily its my off day that day.

I want to continue my msning with feroz.

He is waiting for me and time check.

0500 am.

We should be sleeping by now.

Hahahaha.

FYI, SUNDAY IS MY FIRST MORNING.

SUCKS! SUCKS!SUCKS!

Enjoy your upcoming weekends earthlings.

2009-11-25T18:49:00.004+08:00

Hey there eveyone.
Its quite empty without any updates but you see, my comp is still down.
Boring whats more living in this palce which I don't know even single thing.
I don't know how to get to the mall, what bus I should take.
Worse still, I can't contact anyone in spore including feroz.
Shitt ass, I'm so bored!

And that is why now I'm always at work so that I can be in spore.

Work? Sometimes it was great, sometimes it was really sucks.

My team, ten of them I think have quit and there is more who is going soon.

Manpower was down, lots of gates to do. Damn tiring.

I want to quit and I'm going to tender really soon.

End of this month, I hope so.

Ohh, my boyfriend has found himself a job and I'm so happy for him.

And now, I can like, "baby, i want this."

For sure, I will get the thing. Kan baby?

Yknow what? When I tell my mother that he is working now, guess what she said to me?

Don't be so demanding and don't be attitude when he don't msg or call me. Urgh!

Anyway, I can't wait for this monday.

Dearest love is bringing me to sentosa to celebrate our 8 monthsary.

I got a free entry cause feroz is working there. So easy lor.

Hahaha.

I'm deeply in love with Mohd Ferozhan.

*Forever&Always*

2009-11-12T02:30:00.011+08:00

Pity me that firstly this bloggy is so laggy without updates and all.

Secondly my computer at home was alright but my internet network was down eversince I've shifted to jb.

The only way for me to update this bloggy is now which is on my night shift and I can secretly playing the computer which is provided at the transit area.

Actually cannot tau. Who cares.

Thats it.

My bond is finishing really soon and that is what I've been waiting for this past six months.

But than before quitting, I've to look for another job.

Any recommendations anyone?

But please 8 hours job. I had enough for a 12 hours one. :)

Today is my off and I want to sleep all day long. Tired gile to the max!

Before going back to jb, I've got a date with feroz today after work.

I can't wait for that.Its been so long we've not been going out together.

I think the last time was like 3 or 4 months ago.

I want to go to town and bugis badly.

I don't know, I just miss the times when feroz and I were window shopping, laughing along our way and stuff.

I really miss all that.

Last weekends was great and awesome.

My anuts and uncles was there at my new house to help out with the cleaning.

Dearest love was there too and guess what.

He helped out to paint my house and it was fantastic.

The house was nicely and neatly painted.

Thank you so much feroz.

Kesian baby aku berpeloh-peloh cat rumah.

18 hours tau he never sleep.

You will get your reward end of this month, I promise.

So far my new house was okay lah.

Not much facilities and I've to walk so far to the shops.

I've to adapt to the environment, I guess.

I'm waiting for iqa to overnight at my new house.

When uh iqa? Later we can talk non stop.

Next mission, I want go jalan-jalan at jb with feroz, iqa and ash.

I will update soon whenever I got the time.

Enjoy your days ahead. :)

Feroz, I really love you lah. Why hah?

2009-10-30T01:50:00.009+08:00

Hey there everyone.

Guess what? I'm now at my workplace updating this bloggy.

I can't sllep anyway and if I want to, I've to go back to my office which is damn far from this terminal.

Actually not that far lah but I'm lazy to walk to the office and the office is so cramp.

*cross finger* Hopefully noone saw that I'm using this comp cause according to the rules here, we're not allowed to use the computers inside the transit area. If not L.O.W will be issued.

The rules sucks right? Okay whatever, fuck the job.

Anyway people, I've shifted to johor and I'll be living there for TEMPORARY.

But that doesn't mean I'm going to change my citizenship eh.

Pity my baby, now its hard for us to meet unless he'll come to airport on my working days.

I know my baby is willing to travel in and out cause of me.

I know he'll come down to my house at jb during my off days too.

Right feroz? :)

So some things need to be adjusted here and there like my wake up time for work, my travelling time to work and bla bla bla.

Off days cannot go out that often anymore. Sian sia.

The suckest thing is, this week my off days is on saturday and sunday.

It is on weekends and somemore pay day sey.

But I've to like spent my off days at jb and tidy up my new house whereas other people will like hanging out at town which is at s'pore.

But me? Pity me right?

Oh atleast I got my remedy with me throughout my two off days and helping me out with the tidy up thing. Great!

Thank you so much dearest love.

I love you baby.

*huggs*

Okay2, I'll better log out now before I was issued with L.O.W.

Good night and have a great weekends ahead. Enjoy!

*I miss nur atiqah badly.*

2009-10-27T02:19:00.003+08:00

"Baby, can i photostat you? Cause I want another you and put it at my house so that I can see you everyday."

How would a girlfriend feels if her boyfriend said like that?

Dearest Mohd Ferozhan, thank you so much for this blissful relationship.

No doubts, we argued like other couples did but we are still together till today.

Good or bad, its the love that stayed within us.

You got this extradionary thing that makes me feel like wooahh, I'm the luckiest girlfriend ever on the earth.

HAPPY SEVENTH MONTHSARY. :)

I love you feroz.

*huggs & kisses*

Mohd Ferozhan texted me this,

"Baby, you know what? The word always&forever, that two words is our symbol and you want to know why? Since your name start from 'A' it means 'always' and for me, since my name start from 'F' it means 'forever'. So now we got our own symbol already."

I smiled the minute when he sent me this and my baby is very cute. Hahaha.

2009-09-27T06:12:00.007+08:00

I would never thought that we could go this far together, going through every thick and thin with you.

Sharing all my laughters and sorrowness with you.

Experiencing things that I've never done before with you. *ehem, ehem, yknow i know.*

At times we argued over small things and we cleared the mess up quick.

Its always been you giving in to all those fights that we've ever had.

Eventhough we fight alot but we still moved on together and forget the past.

You spare me your ears and you lend me your shoulders whenever any problems occured.

You gave me your time and your attention and you endlessly advice me to a better way.

You support me in any things that I do.

You were there for me with your love and care.

Anyway, I would like to apologise to you if I disrespect you and used harsh words on you.

I'm sorry if I've ever hurt in you in any way and repeatingly say that crappy line again and again.

But yknow I don't mean to do all that and all those harsh words was because of out of anger during all those arguments.

Once again, I'm truly sorry.

I hope we could go more far than this and I really want to live my life with you.

I feel great and happy cause of our blissful relationship.

Thank you so much for everything.

HAPPY 6TH MONTHSARY.

I swear I love you in every single way. *xoxoxo, huggs* :)))

See you later syg, ohh his family is coming over to my house later on.

*butterfly melayang2 inside this stomach*

"Mohd Ferozhan, I never thought I'd be in love like this with you.*winks*"

2009-09-18T23:27:00.008+08:00

Like finally, I'm off from work for a period.

One day mc plus two days off plus two days leave.

I'm gonna really make full use of it. :))

Off to my grandma's place tomorrow in the afternoon.

Will be celebrating hari raya at kampong this year.

I can't imagine the surrounding.

I will update more later.

Belom pergi so belom tahu. 1st time dok. Haaahaa.

Something special about this year raye tau.

I'm celebrating it with my dearest babylove.

And and and, 8 more days to go baby. Ingakan jerr. :)

Alright, I will update more when I've got the time.

Anyway, salam lebaran to all the muslims out there.

Saya minta maaf jika ada salah silap sewaktu blogging ya. Hahaha.

Enjoys! :))

*I will miss mohd ferozhan for sure.*

2009-09-13T02:54:00.001+08:00

Hey ho hey ho.

I'm back blogging and the blog is back. :))

The blog is fresh to death but the url stays.

Credits goes to my dearly sister. She helped me alot mann.

I'll try to update more often this time. My works sucks uh.

Banyak sak time aku dier amek. 12 jam, what do you expect.

Reached home, bath(sometimes) and off to bed. No time beb.

Alright, I've got to go.

I've to call that mister mohd ferozhan.

Great weekends people.